So what if I disappear
No one here cares much for me anyway
My mental breakdown has broken me down so much that I can't even stand up straight
Too often, I think about how a sharp knife would find a nice home in my hating and suffering heart
But then I realize how terrifying the power people have to end their life if they so choose to
Yet I wonder who would care if I go away and how different the world would be
If my puny and insignificant life matters at all
I don't want to live in this cruel reality anymore
I hate how it's so unbearable and exhausting and expensive to make a living
So why bother trying to
It's been a long time since I've considered myself an angel, because my wings fell off way long ago
As I stare at the unforgiving ground below, I agree that it could be my time now
Since I have no more purpose to keep on living like this

Yes, that's it
Aren't you exhausted of living a life like this
The stress
The anxiety
The depression
The rejection
And worst of all
The sadness.
You should be sick of all of it
Now, while a knife would not be my ideal way of leaving
I understand why you'd want to do it that way
To punish your pathetic breathing and

No!
Don't end your life like this!
There is so much more to live for!
Think about what makes you special and apply that energy to accomplish what you dream to
Everyone is unique in their own way and deserve to live to see themselves grow
And find their own place in the world
Sometimes it can be very cruel
But sometimes you have to appreciate what you have
And remember those who care about you
If you take your own life, a part of those people will die away and their world won't be the same
Don't be ashamed of all of this
Because there is a great fire inside you just waiting to burst out and bring joy and happiness to your life again
Being strong and going on living is the best choice you can make
If you go away now, all of your bullies, tormentors and especially your own demons will have gotten the best of you
And get exactly what they want
Make a statement for all of them and continue living

Don't listen to this sap
He only wants you to keep on living to make the pain even worse
Can't you see he wants you to live a long life full of misery and depression
Get away from this fool and do it already

Now listen you manipulative demon
Torturing a poor soul while he's down, that is pure cruelty
Stop and let him decide what is best

I'll let him do that when you leave this place you stunk up with your false positive ideals
The world can't handle a special soul like him
It is too greedy, selfish and violent
I am trying to protect him from that stuff and allow him to leave before it gets even worse

Now, you listen here

No you listen

Mmmfff
Urgh
Agh
What
Agh
Please
Errgh, my...head
Grrrrr, that's quite enough
I've had it
Hey
Stop the fighting in there
I can't take it
Will you all
SHUT UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUP