I’ve always been the baddest, but lately felt like the maddest
Tryna kick these habits has me acting fucking manic
I’ve been Itching and I’m scratching, tryna get a little action
Tryna get a little more than the shit that I’ve been having
Fixing for the nicotine, like it when it’s hitting me
But looking at myself like are you fucking kidding me
You breathing in the poison, and you blowing out the cancer
I know you’re fucking stressed dawg but that shit ain’t the answer
We know you got your goals, man, your motto is to do or die
But what’s the point if doing is assisting in your suicide?
You should reevaluate and tell bullshit to move aside
You’re a fucking God but your flaws are part your human side
The shit that makes you weak is the shit that makes you stronger
Every loss you take brings you closer to a conquer
You know where you’re headed, tryna bring in all them figures
And your gun is cocked and loaded, now it’s time to pull the trigger

I’ve been tryna kick these habits, yeah
And turn my life around
I’ve been tryna kick these habits, yeah
And change who I am now
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I developed habits ‘cause I have addictive tendencies
It’s like me and the trauma have the perfect fucking chemistry
Me and her were meant to be, from ten into my seventies
We’re the perfect lovers and we’re mortal fucking enemies
We’re not black and white, more like gasoline to matches
We’d rather burn our bridges than to bury all the hatchets
We’re nothing but destructive turning shit we touch to ashes
But after all these years, yeah, we’ve kind of learned to manage
Tortoise of the story and I’m watching all the rabbits hop
Back and forth, back and forth, ‘til they fucking can’t and drop
Walk up to the finish line and then just fucking snatch their spot
Burning bright and dying young and I just came to sit and watch
I’ve been overlooked and under talked about
Been told to take a hike and fucking walked it out
But I kept my chin up no matter how they done treated me
‘Cause what the fuck’s a king to mother fucking deity

I’ve been tryna kick these habits, yeah
And turn my life around
I’ve been tryna kick these habits, yeah
And change who I am now
X2