Maybe one day I won’t have to drink
This all down to the dregs just to feel something
Maybe one day I’ll finally be satisfied
And I won’t want everything all the time
Maybe one day I won’t need to take
All these pills every night just to get some sleep
Maybe one day I’ll walk into a room
And I’ll feel like enough without opening my mouth
I won’t have to prove myself
 
So fix me to the firmament
God, I just hate this place
I need Elysium
A fucking New Jerusalem
Rewrite me, renew me, re-wire
All the thoughts in my head
All the screws come loose
When I’m tossing in bed
I’m a pessimist, a solipsist,
A Nietzsche fever-dream
If yours is the kingdom and power
Can you save me from myself?

Maybe one day I’ll stand with shoulders tall
My back won’t bend with the
Insufferable weight of it all
Maybe one day I won’t need everyone else to love me
I’ll just do it all by myself

Don’t be so masochistic
I think I’ve been broken enough
In the name of a love
That never feels like love
Give me a new heart
I’m tired of this shitty, crooked one
It can’t make sense of anything or anyone
I need a dosage of Gnosis
God, get me out of here
I can’t keep throwing stones in fear
And saying that it’s love

Maybe one day I’ll believe what you say about me
For longer than a Sunday morning