Someone told me "nothing lasts Forever"
They were right
She left after she fucked me up
Had to adapt to a new life
Write another note with a cold, dark Night
And a blood stained fucking knife
It's leaking everywhere and now my Showers sting, but it feels so nice
I want my cashflow to match the flow Of my blood
But soon it will up and stop
Body drop
Life's a flood
I'm feeling so fucking painless
Blade is stainless
Mind buried in mud
Oh oh, hear I fucking go
You might walk into my room and See nothing but blood on the walls
Just so you know
But please keep it on the low low
I wanna rot inside my room after I Feel the blow
Temple hollow
Brains on the floor, that's a hard pill For my mom to fucking swallow
I seen a bad path, and chose it to Follow
The grass was never green
That's why I turned a fiend
Blocking out emotions, so people by My side
I can't lose another one, I can't have Another cry
Gotta break this fucking cycle
While I wanna die
When yall see me weeping, you act As if you can't see
So I act as I'm fine
I see the fucking pain
I look the other way
Man fuck, I'm feeling blind
Call off my fight with life, I blew the Whistle a couple times
But god ain't hear shit, but will he Hear me when I want forgiveness?
Bitch
All around me, it's just bad days
Hammer cocked and pointed at my Temple
I'm ready enough to blow out my Brains
Choose my ways
Gloss my chains
Steel knife stained, I pray
On the ones who keep me alive and Fucking going
Bad thoughts in my head are the Thoughts I'm stowing
Black hearse bed, my mind is Blowing
Rather be dead than alive
Smoked a few bowls to get high
But I got caught with all my shit
Lord why?
Momma found my stuff and said "This yours?"
"It's mine"
I'm really really really really really Fucking sorry
The ways I got to cope
Haven't changed since I was 12 years Old
Hit the spliff at 12, I was feeling cold
Dealing with some trauma I will Never fucking unfold
Just build it all up
Im a man, I should be tough
"Your emotions aren't real"
A wise man told me that one
Now everytime I eat a meal
Feel it's gon be my last
Will I build up the courage to do More than relapse?
Money? Thats facts
Bitches? That's past
Minimum problems, but I cannot Solve them
I don't know how to fucking act
I gave my life all that I had
I gave it all, that's really sad
No child deserves this pain, it is so Fucking bad