Do you see the look inside my eye?
Do you see that I don't like this life And wanna die?
Back talks with the reaper, yeah I'm Realer than a lie
I can't see the shit from miles away if I tried
I can't see the shit that I apply
I can't see the tear drops that I cry
Searching the my brain like I'm a spy
Tryna find a reason to keep on Chugging by
Cold in hot seasons, blindly rot with Flies
I only know some shit
They will fuck me over, but when I Get rich
Would they still be fucking with my Heart?
I see clearly that they do it, I'm really Fucking smart
But play it like I'm blind and dumb
Until they fuck me up and then it's The pain I numb
You look kinda different
You don't look like my mistress
Feel like my homies all passed
But they snaked me in the fucking Grass
She only wanted one thing, now same For me, give me ass
I'm fucked up from these people in This world
Look inside the mirror, take my fist And curl
Wanna become one with the buried
Forget all those people that caused All my pain
I was blind to the pain people caused Me
I was blind to the shit people put me Through
I fucking hate myself for that
I feel like I'll never be the same old Me again
But the old me let people take Advantage and do as they please
So if you want the old me back
Fuck you
I was desperate for love
I needed the fake love people gave Me
I fucking betrayed myself
Feel like I'm motherfucking dead
Take the gun and put a bullet through My fucking head
Hate gon kill you, before the shotgun Spread
Prozac to keep me chill, but I still Wanna eat the lead
I'm so so so fucked up
God looking down, but I can't look Up
There's nothing in the sky
That tree and this car collide
I been beaten down, now I wanna Fucking die
If heavens waiting for me, why can't I fucking leave?
Not long before I see the dirt, I Wanna be diseased
They raid my fucking brain
Tell me I'm insane
Tell me I should go and die in every Single way
I want the pain to stop but it's not till I'm phased
I was so fucking numb and then I got My high
Still my reason to live is not to be Alive
I was so fucking numb and then I got My high
Still my reason to live is to fucking Die