Papers spilling off my desk
Words come tumbling outta my head
Yeah this heart inside my chest
It feels ripped up, split, like lead
I have no space
You cramp my space
Get outta my way
Before i punch your face
Leave me be and let me see
I had it all but i get caught in the bling
Why can't you give me help
I say it
Yeah i'm 'bout to lose myself
I know it
I needed some help and i had to set sail for the place of my dreams
And all the great things that i thought would help
When i landed in fame but i actually felt
Sadness and pain
That couldn't go away
Was that really fate
Or was i a fake
The ropes got tight
I was losing my life
It comes and goes
In and out of my sight
I'm 'bout to go blind
It's in my mind
Mind's a construction site
Mind isn't right
I was down when You gave me flight
The door opens up
I head into my room
It feels like a coffin
Like my own tomb
It darkens inside when i shut the blinds
I just need time but then i realize
That i don't feel safe i wanna escape
Things are in my way i'm going insane
Yeah i feel alone
I feel scared
It's become a warzone
As my head fills with nightmares (yep)
I know the light's on but i don't see it
I'm already gone i may as well try it
I know the light's on but i don't see it
I'm already gone i might start a riot
Yeah my house burns down all the way to the ground
I can see it now why you never come around
Look, all i can do is moan all i do is groan
It destroyed my home and is racking my bones
It hurts so much when i look at the stuff
Reminders of bad things i wanted to leave
In the past where it stayed
In the past where it came
In the past i guess i'll need tape
To tie it down and to keep it that way
I head to my bed
A lot of things said
Yeah i need to mend
'Cuz it's hurting my head
The door opens up
I head into my room
It feels like a coffin
Like my own tomb
It darkens inside when i shut the blinds
I just need time but then i realize
That i don't feel safe i wanna escape
Things are in my way i'm going insane
Yeah i feel alone
I feel scared
It's become a warzone
As my head fills with nightmares (yep)
(As my head fills with nightmares, yep)
Yeah i wanna fight
But it hurts me to try
Yeah i really don't wanna die
But i'm already dead inside
Please help me fight
Yeah i hate to cry
Yeah i don't wanna die
But crying helps the pain inside
The door opens up
I head into my room
It feels like a coffin
Like my own tomb
It darkens inside when i shut the blinds
I just need time but then i realize
That i don't feel safe i wanna escape
Things are in my way i'm going insane
Yeah i feel alone
I feel scared
It's become a warzone
As my head fills with nightmares (yep)
God, help me
You're my last hope
Thought You had me
When the rope broke
You never gave up
Though i thought You did
I ask myself
Am i really worth it