I know I need to forgive myself
I know I need to prioritize my health
I know I need help
I know I need somebody out there to love
I know I need rest, but I don't listen
Give to the wolf that is holding me back
From a different person when I don't envision
That every day is a nightmare I'm holding me back
I don't care anymore
I know I need healing just give me a break
I know that I suck I don't need you to tell me
That's why I believed it for most of the time
Of my life, cause I don't know anything else
Probably punished for something that I didn't do
Trynna just figure out what did I lose
Fuck it I'm used to the losses
I promise that I know the belt
And it's fucked up my view
Not afraid to die, cause I wanna do it every fucking day of my life
Yes I'm losin' the fight, I be using my hands when I write, but my heart not involved
think I lost it a long time ago when I liked
All the music I wasn't allowed to be listening to
Envisioning slim on the news
I'd be lost in my thoughts while I'm dreamin' that I am the one who the crowd was just singing it to
I know I need to forgive myself
I know I need to prioritize my health
I know I need help
I know I need somebody out there to love
I know I need to care 'bout somebody else
I'm so fuckin' broken I'm put on the shelf
So what can I do? I'm holding me back
From whatever I choose
I was born for the pain, but I'm sick of the rain
You the same but you also addicted to change
You a dick, cause you think you can fix anything that you wish
I just cry 'bout the things that I miss
Feel revived but there's something I'm pushing aside
Can't cheat death if you wanted to try
Give me a reason to live I've been leaving to die
Bottle my feelings aside
Nobody should feel this sad
Nobody should feel this sad
I'm tryin now to forgive myself
I'm findin' the time to prioritize my health
I know I need somebody, I'm dreamin' of falling in love
That somebody's me
That somebody's me