I'd go through my motions
She'd roll up a joint
Something didn't click, I'd be feeling blue
She told me that I'm useless
Said, ""Baby, what's the point?""
How can I still trust that she's something new?

Words don't scratch the surface
Pain's stuck on my tongue
My scars need time for healing
The smoke still coats my lungs
You still have an ego
cnd I'm still just a bitch
I'm still just a bitch

I feel that things are worsening
My blood, it boils, it's curdling
Feelings so deep are surfacing
I lurch, my stomach's turning

Think of the past, I'm circling
Of all the love and worshiping
I'm drowning, I'm gurgling
It can't get worse from here

They're not the same (they're not the same)
They're not the same as you, it can't be true (it can't be true)
They're not the same (they're not the same)
They're not the same (they're not the same)
So why's my brain stuck?

If you saw me (saw me)
You didn't (you didn't)
I'm different (different)
Persistent (I am)
I'm driven (vroom)
cnd not about to look back

The gears and the pistons
cre grinding, just listen
My heart is saying stop
(Heart is saying stop)

I'd go through my motions
She'd roll up a joint
Something didn't click, I'd be feeling blue
She told me that I'm useless
Said, ""Baby, what's the point?""
How can I still trust that she's something new?

Words don't scratch the surface
Pain's stuck on my tongue
My scars need time for healing
The smoke still coats my lungs
You still have an ego
cnd I'm still just a bitch
I'm still just a bitch

So, as I was saying
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I wonder just how high this plane can go
Until the pressure makes it explode
Hello, hello, hello

I feel things are worsening
Hold you back from breaking things
You know I don't wanna be your guard dog
But I gotta be
Fuck, I gotta talk myself out of this crush
Think I might have been in love with you

Crushing daisies in my hands
To ignite them in my head
Yeah, I think my soul is growing up
But now my heart is dead
Yeah, I saw you in my dreams
But I'd bet I'm imagining you

It's not your fault
It's not your fault
It's not your fault
It's not your fault

I know you saw
How I fell apart
cnd I won't fall for you