I never enjoyed the surprise birthday
So naturally I hate the opposite surprise
And you can imagine I'm hurting the worst way
Your family's loss is heaven's gain, oh that's right

But I, I keep falling down that hole
The one that I can't control
You are gone, send a text you don't respond, so

Not tryna be selfish, no
But can you enter my heart from heaven?
'Cause I got questions

I won't sit here and call you selfish
But could you tell that you would leave us in hell? (In hell)
I can't say you were anyone else's
'Cause life is so cold, it's only saying, "Oh well"

Is this a joke or better question, then why?
You ain't want us to know, 'cause you had anti-pride

Also too much on your mind
Addresses, numbers, times
Your obsession that nobody questioned

It feels like we're all blind 'cause we didn't read the sign
11:11, a new star in heaven

Is this a joke or better question, then why?
You ain't want us to know, you kept your plan airtight

Was it your (anti-pride?)
If you were upset, you would never let us see
Guess what? She's hurt
But she would never let you know it (let you know it)
Never show it, no matter what, she stays smiling (one minute I'm crying)
No, I'm not upset
You think that this shit is funny?
Laughing out loud, yeah, bet you're rolling over (rolling over)
Showing God that I'm ugly face crying