Wonder what's the deal, now I'm takin' time to process
I don't even know about my shit and how I lost it
I've been tryin' to believe it myself
Ignoring my health, avoid any help (it's fine)
Said "I need to chill", swear my brain too cautious
Tryna sit still
Nicotine, make me nauseous
Staring at the ceiling
Convince myself I'm breathing, but looks can be deceiving
(Drop it)
I hope you're sorry now, cuz I know that it brings you down
This shit I can't say out loud, so I write it out, shut my mouth, get over it
I'm drownin' out the sound with alcohol, I'm spinnin' 'round
This shit I can't say out loud, so I'm typin' out a paragraph I'll never send
Seasons are changin' too fast, I'm trippin' over my feet (Ooh)
Reasons to run from my past, the weight is just too heavy (Ooh)
Just let shit happen, like what are intentions?
Lost all my best friends
What is my purpose if I'm out of verses?
I'd lay here in silence til I go to sleep
Best friends with my eyelids
(And then I see the shadow of my profile on the wall)
I hope you're sorry now, cuz I know that it brings you down
This shit I can't say out loud, so I write it out, shut my mouth, get over it
I'm drownin' out the sound with alcohol, I'm spinnin' 'round
This shit I can't say out loud, so I'm typin' out a paragraph I'll never send
I hope you're sorry now, cuz I know that it brings you down
This shit I can't say out loud, so I write it out, shut my mouth, get over it
I'm gonna try to drown with the red I paint inside my house
This shit I can't say out loud, so I'm typin' out a paragraph I'll never send