Casted to the dark so blindsided
locked out to all like i'm in hiding
feeling like a ghost who cannot find its host
i'm at my lowest low
alone in here and it's just not fair
don't wanna say that it's to late
another day another nightmare
it's okay is what you say
but I
I used to feel so alive
but cannot break the cycle
I wish that I could let go
but you have such a hold
I wanna see what's left in me
but i'm exhausted by the way she goes
I can be safe if i stay away
but have this fear of me being left alone
threw me to the wolves
had me stuck in a hold
guess it was getting old
cuz now i'm just a memory
i'm a castaway
your very own castaway
feeling washed up and down
can't believe what my eyes have witnessed now
panic attacks have my soul trapped and I can't seem to break out
been hiding for many years now
Identity's in the ground
feel so meaningless bet you can find me in the lost and found
I recall that you said we were safe with each other
thought that was the case til i heard from another
you played me so wrong now I just duck and cover
and now i'm a shell to myself
you wish i'd forget what you did to me
but I
but I fucking can't
all of the hurt and the treachery
you don't
you don't understand
I will take you down
this time it's over
I wanna see what's left in me
but i'm exhausted by the way she goes
I can be safe if i stay away
but have this fear of me being left alone
threw me to the wolves
had me stuck in a hold
guess it was getting old
cuz now i'm just a memory
i'm a castaway
your very own castaway
I wore your words across my chest
in hopes that this would last
after all the triggers you set off inside of my head
I wore your words across my chest
in hopes that this would last
after all
i still want you
i still want you
dead
i want you dead
you continue to play and deplete my name
nothing but pain i'm your very own castaway