How do I survive?

Eyes held open for me to finally start another useless day
So far gone I never really find the perfect words to say

Anything worth anything to anyone
I can’t begin to believe
That my whole life could be lies
So what I destined to bleed

Every day for my whole life
Internally
Irrational mentality
Cause I’m fucked in the head it seems

Is it a crime
To wonder why
How everyday I chose to survive?

How do I survive
(Survive)
Will I make it out alive?
(Alive)
When every day is harder than the rest
(Harder than the rest)
Will you save my life
For the last time?

You say it’s just a bad day
Not a bad life
Well it’s a bad fucking life

I don’t want to be here anymore
You can tell when I’m dead on the floor

I’m grasping to straws to say the least
Holding to hope that my minds relieved
Happiness is my only dream
It feels so close but is out of reach
Out of reach

Holding onto nothing
I’m reaching out for anything

How do I survive
(Survive)
Will I make it out alive?
(Alive)
When every day is harder than the rest
(Harder than the rest)
Will you save my life
For the last time?

I play the biggest part in my own suffering
But I never really take the blame
I can’t control when my mood is buffering
And nothing ever seems to stop the pain