1999 as mom came home
I asked her
"Mom, can I have a new pair of jeans?"
She said yes and bought me
A pair of flair blue jeans
With colorful butterflies
Embroidered all over it
Excited I wore it
But what I saw in the mirror
Smashed and smothered me
That was the moment when I first realized
That I didn't look like the girls on tv
Nobody told me
But I knew that something
Was wrong with me
That I had to hide
At night I asked myself to sleep
How would it be
If I were born thin
Next time I went shopping
Straight to the male section
I bought myself a couple of XXL tees
Which covered me almost until my knees
I felt like my secret was safe again
No one would ever know
No one would ever know
What I hid underneath
How I was underneath
Nobody told me
But I knew that something
Was wrong with me
That I had to hide
At night I asked myself to sleep
If I were born thin
You would have loved me
I would have loved me
It'd be fun
But I just stood there
Staring at the others
Always wondering in my head
How would it be
If I were born thin
How would it be