You ever went into your fucking kitchen ain't nothing there?
You ever tell yo family ab your problems not a soul cared?
Look
Life is not fair or so they say tell yo ass to grow a pair
Ever grew up with some decent parents with some money shared?
Couldn't keep a job money tight, mama scared
Uh look
Life is not fair, yeah we know
Trynna keep up on our feet, the pressures killin' me
I need to hold off on the weed, i need my fucking clarity right now
Drown myself in alcohol I'm fucking throwed out
Uh
Almost left my home on some bullshit
It's my senior year I'm bout to lose it
Started all these habits, guess the shoe fit
Man this shit is stupid every time I pick it up I'm like how the fuck I do this to myself
To be honest, i don't give a fuck about my health
Only love my girl, my clique, my wealth
All this shit I've dealt, how i hold it up shit i couldn't tell you
It's all under FINEST belt
Huh
FINEST belt
Back to the topic at hand
Had a knife in that shit ready to go goddamn
Higher than a motherfucking kite, ready to end my motherfucking life
I jus might make another song end it after
End of carmine chapter got so high I don't even know who the fuck I am anymore
I hate this shit, I hate my life, I hate myself
I don't know what's been going on for weeks
I don't wanna speak up cause they think I'm fuckin' weak
Does my girl really love me, tongue and cheek
Shut up with that whack shit, this my ill mind
I'mma be the fucking first 4 fine
I'm trying to move on I'm really lying
I don't really wanna die, Carmine you don't wanna die
Do you?