Romanticizing passing in my sleep
Wake up spazzing drowning in the deep
It's never even about just what I need
I need to wake up before tomorrow comes
Homies friend took her life, motherfucker called her dumb
I know he's frustrated got a weight somewhere there on his lungs
Choking up just tryna talk about her hadn't even talked to her in months
He's got a lot of feelings he's gotta confront
I just let him talk I don't wanna interrupt
Said she wanted to be a model but the rich and famous do corrupt
Started showing me some pictures talking ill but I could see the love
Like "how could you fucking do that?"
You only get one life this shit's precious and you knew that
You visited me in New York talking about getting a new pad
A nice place in a complex down the road that got a view that
Overlooks the city
God I feel so shitty
It was jokes! I didn't know!
I thought you'd never take your own
Growing old, showing cold
Now I'm stuck out here alone"
I could hear the pain inside his voice
Can't accept that it was her choice
It brought me to reality, don't ever wanna do that to my boys
But it's hard to silence noise, I know my decisions do destroy
I need to wake up before tomorrow comes
It's my time to set feel like I'm following the sun
Don't want my family to mourn for me when the Morning comes
If I do not rise somewhere east look out to the farther stars
There's a whole lot of Galaxy that never got to know us
Stuck inside my head trapped inside all the lost moments
Time is passing I'm losing track tryna reach atonement
If I don't reach out again thank you for loving me and being so supportive