I just wanna talk my shit but I don't feel like I live up to it
These insecurities come in waves gotta swim up to it
Drowning in my fears I don't think this love will do it
This house is not a home it's burning down I'm all alone in it
My old girl hit my phone on some shit that is overdue
It isn't fucking childish to say that I've been over you, I'm far removed
Tryna get this car to move
Become one with the universe under this starry roof
People acting different I just learn to sift around them
Do my best to lift them up but they wanna keep me grounded
So when I switch it up they wanna act so astounded
Used to say they love me and I never used to doubt it
But they been keeping score and my points just never counted
They been warming benches you would think they were bounded
They'll come around just to measure up what you amounted
Try and size you down, make a mole hill out of a mountain
Still they drink out of your fountain
Cuz when the liquid flows know you'll be surrounded
Wait for you to crash and burn
Nothing ever lasts it's just your turn
Take your turn
I can't be here forever
This moment is enough for me
I wish I could storm the weather
This rain make it tough for me
It's putting out the fire tho, lately I've been burning out
Don't know how to love figured I should learn it now
Don't got energy for anyone but they think I get around
I wanna settle down
24 years don't really got shit to show for it
Dealing with a lot you think that I would grow from it
Sorting out my thoughts can be such a fruitless endeavor
Got me lost, distraught, gotta pull myself together
If I lose this fight don't know how I will get up again
Fighting inner demons just tryna make amends with them
Don't gotta be friends again, I just need the sun to set and end
This endless night and bring me light, searching for deliverance
Wanna talk with Heavens denizens, don't wanna fence em in
Wait for me to crash so they can fix the damages
Watch me bleed out while tucking all their bandages
Never even question circumstances that they're standing in
My time to go will be soon enough I just hope I get to say when
They hold no accountability, doing business in a play pen
Making up the rules just to change them by days end
Its the same shit
Arguing semantics need it pedantic
Chilling on writers block getting kinda frantic
Mortality accepted well that should be a granted
But when I tell them that they think that I'm manic
I can't be here forever
This moment is enough for me
I wish I could storm the weather
This rain make it tough for me
I can't be here forever
I just need right now, right now