You don't believe in me, that's crazy 'cause we family
Can't vent to no one, don't feel like they understanding me
Want this shit to pop, but I been losing faith
No motivation to make it, but I gon' keep the patience
And I just want to run it up, just want to be stable
Went missing with music for personal reasons
I had to leave this shit, 'cause I was out here fighting these demons
Couldn't keep my head up because that shit was just getting too draining
Sorry to everyone who was expecting videos, I couldn't do 'em
Sorry to everyone who was expecting me to go on with this
I had to take a minute to rebuild, had to refocus
Nobody didn't even notice, was crying out for help low-key but niggas thought I was joking
That's real shit though, got to keep going even if I just want to quit though
Shit hurt my heart, bruised me up but I deal with that shit though
In 2 years, look at all the shit I done accomplished
Made a name for myself and I was just starting out
One of the top niggas in my city, one of the youngest in my city
Could've went missing for some years, nobody would be fucking with me
I done helped so much, and motivate some niggas too
That don't stop there, trying to get my city in the door too
Finna do it the right way, hard work and dedication
Even when it get tough, I still trying to hold on to the patience
Got to get a grip, 'cause I feel like I floating away
Come on the mic and speak, even when I ain't know what to say
Shit confusing, showed you love and loyalty, you turned around and used me
Took L's by myself, they wasn't there when I was losing
Who feels it, knows it, only couple would understand
You ever been trying to cry and you just can't
You ever had to take a L, it wasn't part of the plan
You ever get down played by niggas who you thought was your mans
You ever put a 100% and it just wasn't enough
You ever felt like you ruining everything that you touch
And that's some real shit, been through so much shit inside this life, I cannot feel shit
Trying to use a smile to hide the things I deal with
If I ever tell you my story, you wouldn't believe it
I just keep on going on, even through, all this pain shit
Rest up cuz, when you did gone, that was a tragedy
You was my dawg, that did really take a part of me
We didn't speak, but I know that it was all love
Never thought I'd have to see you in the ground dawg
Grammy, I love you to death, just know that I miss you
You died around the time when I was just planning to see you
Graduated high school, I just wished I could've called you
Granddaddy, you passed away when I was just in primary school
I really miss you, I just wish I could've seen you too
So much more I want to say, but tears in my eye
Want to let it out, but I don't want see myself cry
Trying to get through it but it is really a hard fight
Before I die, hope I could give my people a better life
Just want give them a better life
Ain't a farewell, just a hold firm 'til next time