I so numb to pain, I so used to just getting hurt
Always was taught wish for the best, but expect the worst
And I was getting put last from people I was putting first
Can't let my heart be the reason I get put on a shirt
Experiencing pain from I was young, thought I was under a curse
It make me change, I ain't the same, I just moving cautious
Too solid, even though I get cross, I can't do no crossing
Can't be showing too much feelings, so I just gotta toss 'em
God help me through it all and I thank Him everyday 
And I be trying to make this rap blow in every way 
They tell me I can't do it and I gotta prove 'em wrong 
Put pain in every lyric, on every verse, in every song 
Stand out from niggas 'cause I know I wouldn't belong 
Ain't faking pain 'cause I was battling for long 
Had to live with the fact that I can't change people that did me wrong 
Real blood sweat and tears getting put inside the hustle 
Failure after failure, all I really could've do was fumble 
And I deserve every blessing 'cause I was very humble 
Built very tough because I always was taking a tumble 
Suicidal thoughts, I was really fighting off depression 
Never cut myself, but wanted to end it, 'cause I couldn't take it 
Tears in my eyes writing this, swear to God I cannot fake it
Shake back and I numb to all the pain that I was facing 
And I shed so much tears, I swear that I can't cry no more 
Remember days I didn't want go outside of the door 
And I can't see why people do me wrong, my intentions pure 
My dawg turn into a snake, and it hurt me to the core 
Nowadays shit happen and I just don't feel it no more 
Can't let nobody take advantage and just leave me no more 
And I get issues, can you hear my pain all through your speaker
And I learn things in life I never learn from no teacher 
The way I get lyrical, they thought I was a preacher
And I so numb to pain, I so used to just getting hurt
Always was taught wish for the best, but expect the worst
And I was getting put last from people I was putting first
Can't let my heart be the reason I get put on a shirt
Experiencing pain from I was young, thought I was under a curse
It make me change, I ain't the same, I just moving cautious
Too solid, even though I get cross, I can't do no crossing
Can't be showing too much feelings, so I just gotta toss 'em
Ice cubes in my chest, my heart gone, I done lost it
Real is rare, it ain't too much who keep it solid
These hoes did me dirty but it normal now
Can't be falling in love, that shit gon only slow me down
If I wasn't strong, the wind would've blow me down
But I so numb to the pain, I feel nothing now
Pain put me on my grind that give me a reason now
I being selfish, focused on me, this my season now
Gang
And I so numb to pain, I so used to just getting hurt
Always was taught wish for the best, but expect the worst
And I was getting put last from people I was putting first
Can't let my heart be the reason I get put on a shirt
Experiencing pain from I was young, thought I was under a curse
It make me change, I ain't the same, I just moving cautious
Too solid, even though I get cross, I can't do no crossing
Can't be showing too much feelings, so I just gotta toss 'em