Outside thinking in the rain
Drinking champagne just for the pain
Don't expect none cause everybody change
If we don't talk again then I'm not to blame
Why the play when it come to me?
Why it feel like everything and everyone so numb to me
I get real teary eyed when I think about shit that they done to me
I been real traumatized from things that I've seen right in front of me
I feel like everybody is against everything that I wanna be
cll of my dogs they in the gym
Niggas wanna talk we spin again
Only one call to finish him
Draco be sounding like angel hymns
Walk in the party like him again
I stayed low now everybody wanna be friends again
Too busy to answer don't bother me
Feel like I just won me the lottery
Been on top of my shit, who topping me?
I kicked down the door, know who stopping me?
No one
I'm both sides with it
North side with it
Rare breed just know I'll die with it
They ask when I'll finish
This Gods gift it don't got no time limit
It's a billion people just know that I'm different
Well respected
Well neglected
Tryna stay strong as I battle depression
I need some direction
Mom worked a lot now I fiend for attention
My heart need protection
My soul is in question
Unhealed wounds my mind is a weapon
I'm outside
Outside outside outside
I'm outside
Outside outside outside
Big four five
Two guns on both sides
When I walk out you can't win if you don't try
They sleeping on me see the closed eyes
You creeping shawty please don't lie
cnd my heart bleeding but I don't cry
Not having shit taught valuable lessons
Childhood trauma my feelings deflected
Showing this anger my only expression
It's hard to do wrong when you always corrected
cll of that hate in the shit you projecting
cll of that hate you find ways to discredit
Conflicts with your ego discredit the message
But I ain't no preacher this just a lesson
Time will tell all this time that been tested
Work through my craft my biggest investment
Eight years later all this progression
Outside thinking in the rain
Drinking champagne just for the pain
Don't expect none cause everybody change
If we don't talk again then I'm not to blame
Why the play when it come to me?
Why it feel like everything and everyone so numb to me
I get real teary eyed when I think about shit that they done to me
I been real traumatized from things that I've seen right in front of me
I feel like everybody is against everything that I wanna be