I never thought I'd be someone
To make the night about myself
I float
I just float

I trace your stories with my brush
I fill in your blanks with words of love
I float
I just float
Over the fields at home
Or the mountains I've made friends with
Floating
But I'm still floating

I'll tie the balloons to a rock
Call you my anchor, pause the clock
I float
I just float

Dear you,
Whoever you are at the moment
I'm sorry if you feel like I'm pinning this on you
Not that you know
But if you did know you might be
Overwhelmed
No one deserves to hold that kind of responsibility
And as lovely as you are
And as much as I wanna hold hands with you in the dark
It's not you
It's me
I gotta fall in love with myself first
Or at least stop hating myself first
And you might fade from my life
That's okay
Because if I ever stop floating
It might be all about someone else
Someone new
Because after all
It's not
You
It's me

Ignoring you means that I care
Standing near you I smell your hair I float
I just float
I taped on a smile, changed my clothes
What I think when I see you no one knows
I float
I just float

I'll be seventeen for the summer
Make myself my own lover
Floating
But I'm still floating
I'll tie the balloons to a rock
Call you my anchor, pause the clock
I float
I just float