I look around and everyone wants something
That I should want, that I don't want, that I can't have
I follow them 'round and force myself out of the bed
"Ralph, get out of your head"
But fuck this isn't maturity
If this is adult life, it's so shitty
And lately, I've been questioning myself on what I want
What I should want, what they want me to want
Want me to want

Their eyes, they throw us in the pit of shut social ideals
"Be like us, not you, not real"
They run and chase and kill their own to get those money deals
The state of nature is here
Should I want all of their things
When they're all material things?

My ex, I broke up and felt bad that I couldn't offer
All the things that she deserved
She never asked for anything, but on my side
There was a lack of that "something"
So for months no one understood a thing
They saw a blackened soul that thrives to sting
But no one chooses to have a hollow heart
I hid too well that lack of spark
Lack of spark

I wanna find the butterflies that get them on their knees
Feel love, hurt, and get cut deep
But it's hard when all my strokes earn from society a sneer
It's love and be loved in fear
Oh, I wanna feel something
But I cannot feel a thing

I wanna fall in love so hard, I won't get back up again
And I wanna write and sing, and live my music day to day
But the clouds are here and there's a choice that has to be made
Should I free myself from them or join their wheel of bills and gains?

Still, life's kinda good but I'm afraid of what's to come
I'm stuck, I can't move on
I lowkey wish I could burn miles and skip to my life's end
So this song would have a better end
Chapters roll and pages turn but I'm still at the start
Shed light on my heart
Shed light on my heart
Please, shed light on my heart