There's an illness in this heart of mine
And I don't know if I'll ever recover
Self-inflicted wounds consume my mind
And every time I try to win the fight again, it's over
So I learn to hold it in
And wait until it dies 'cause
Lord knows I won't let go this time
Now I wonder where the wonder has gone
'Cause I don't feel a thing, and it feels wrong
As I hide behind a state of mind associated with my life
I can't believe I truly am surprised
I think I forgot how to cry
There was loveliness in everything
And every phrase was like a poem
Now my world is full of irony and apathy
Yeah, I fell into this cycle without knowing
And I learned to hold it in
Then wait until it dies 'cause
Lord knows I won't let go this time
Now I wonder where the wonder has gone
'Cause I don't feel a thing, and it feels wrong
As I hide behind a state of mind associated with my life
I can't believe I truly am surprised
I think I forgot how to cry
Is there strength in vulnerability?
Are there tears in masculinity?
Is it my pride that's getting in the way?
I want chills from hearing symphonies
And to see the art in simple things
But I suffocate my feelings while my heart is bleeding out
I just wanna feel, but I've forgotten how
Now I wonder where the wonder has gone
'Cause I don't feel a thing, and it feels wrong
As I hide behind a state of mind associated with my life
I can't believe I truly am surprised
I think I forgot how to cry