I've kicked myself so many times the bruises will not heal
They fade from black and blue to red, to me it's no big deal
My swollen, beaten body isn't much to gaze upon
These stubby legs won't do much good, I've nothing to stand on
But you, you stay in my mind
I will wait here all the time
I will stay, I won't stray
Until these paths become aligned
I am careful, I am careless
I am fickle, I am fake
As I wonder, as I ponder
How many lifetimes it will take
I carry so much baggage now the weight gives me distress
No quiet voices soothe and numb, I remain a broken mess
You look at me in such a way it cuts me to the bone
It don't hurt you, I know the pain is mine and mine alone
But you, you stay in my mind
I will wait here all the time
I will stay, I won't stray
Until these paths become aligned
I am careful, I am careless
I am fickle, I am fake
As I wonder, as I ponder
How many lifetimes it will take
Baby, how you broke me, how the stitches came undone
Your look is my undoing, I will never be the one
So many countless times I've tried to get this off my chest
You know how you don't know how I remain a broken mess
But you, you stay in my mind
I will wait here all the time
I will stay, I won't stray
Until these paths become aligned
I am careful, I am careless
I am fickle, I am fake
As I wonder, as I ponder
How many lifetimes it will take
It will take the life I make.