I don't drink but I still know how to self-medicate
I don't stay out and party but I still get home way too late
I can sit in the darkness and write out my goals
Pretending I'll remember them in the morning when I wake
What a funny little life
I lie and say I'm happy when I've had a really bad day
I laugh with a smile when I just wanna stay awake
But if one bad habit can make your life a mess
Then why do I feel like this?
I'm trying my best
I wanna be your perfect ray of sun
I wanna be your number one
The one you call and make your dreams about
When you're lying at home in your bed
I'm trying my best but it's never enough
I'm never enough
Ah ah, oh
Ah ah, oh
What is it that makes you taste so bitter on my tongue?
What is it that makes me wanna scream?
I hate you and everything you do
When I know it's not the truth
What is it about you that makes me want you?
I wanna be your perfect ray of sun
I wanna be your number one
The one you call and make your dreams about
When you're lying at home in your bed
I'm trying my best but it's never enough
I should be enough
I should be enough
I should be enough
Why am I not enough
I should be enough
I should be enough