When I was insecure and hated me I loved you more than you know
I hated all of your friends and tried to not let it show
The fear of losing you entirely my heart turn to stone
If you could tether my spirit then you could shatter my bone
When it was good then it was good and you brought fear to my mind
You put my thoughts in a limbo I clenched my teeth and I tried
You drained the life out of me there were no tears when I cried
I gave you all your love languages you fluent in lies
Young dumb and lost and in gaze I gave you all that you needed
You made me feel like a phase you'd be a hoe and conceited
I promise that nothing has changed you take your life in an instant
If I gave love how you gave yeah
If I wasn't me would you love me and wasn't me would you trust me?
Then why did we become something if you gon leave like it's nothing?
Damn
If you gon leave like it's nothing
I'm so confused yeah I'm puzzled all of our pieces are jumbled
Pieces don't fit when we struggle you for the streets it ain't subtle
Your mind's a jungle you're troubled I pulled you out of the rubble
You put me back in my bubble I know I speak with this muzzle
End up hushing and mumble my feelings end up in puddles
You step in it I crumble girl you gon step in it I crumble
I put my dreams to the side and all of yours before of mine
I keep my needs all disguised in lies cos I'm petrified
If I don't keep it inside my mind gets heated and blind
I wouldn't see what you needed which means I couldn't provide
Besides I'd let you live life cos I could barely live mine
Defined behind a mind that I designed to keep it inside
All of my pain and my pride
All my pride all my pride all my
You always been so ignorant I tell you how I'm feeling
But you always on different shit I press you on your disrespect
You always so belittling you say you understand the point
I swear you're never listening yeah
Lost you to the world I can't pretend
Text messages with no pretext love you and I hate you
That just means sex NGL a nigga with a mean text
Paraphrase your feelings you don't mean that
Deleting hella text like I ain't seen that
In this mind state where I been at
I sent you all these thoughts got a green text
Changed a lot of me you ain't seen that
Saw potential in me do you mean that?
It's harder building trust up with no respect
Harder building love up in this neglect
Baggage getting heavy that's just 3 checks that's just 3 checks yeah