Purging, urging to have space
Please, like i did before
I don't wanna close the doors with you
Feeling every little thing, cause the little things matter to you
I don't mind the purging
Urges, I'm feeling worthless
I don't know where my heart is
Is it with you, can I have it back?
Never mind the less of it all
Never mind the hex you put on me
Is it for the better, you'd be gone?
Is it for the less of me to fall back into sin?
And yet again I'd still be your friend
Cause' i don't mind the purges, as long as you feel you're worth it again
Again and again
I still sit, thinking we're okay
I don't feel the pain, I don't feel alive
Tryna find Christ
Little boy inside, screaming for his life
Trapped inside a mind, programed by lies
Youth, your not alone
Fighting demons that are not your own
Family trauma you ain't asked for, now it's only you on your floor
Feeling like the high is your temple to run to
But trust me your Father wants you
(And somehow that shielded him, and unionized him)
(Against the distinction in his family)
(So it's always worth remembering that in middle of all the bad news)
(that there are some remarkable and resilient, children and adults)