Sometimes i think to myself
that i would rather be alone
than fight this paranoia

i ain't a human no more
more like a man-o-war cause

i'm a hybrid organism
within a system

that works up in agreement
every single piece something different

religion is something new to me
not something i trust in
daddy taught me young
bout all the ways that it's corrupted

but just because it's twisted
doesn't mean it's based in nothing
i do believe that Jesus walked among us

but now we living in an age of imposters
fake ass rappers be dying out
like who shot ya

reincarnate
tell we break out samsara

but imma different breed
i spliced my genes with a lobster

i am immortal
fool me once
i ain't got shit for you

i been around long enough
to know that
shit turn to soil

so i won't let you fertilize via hate
and i been through enough
to recognize a fried mind state

i don't wanna let egotism
become my new religion
cause im convinced that i know best
but still take doctors prescriptions

and i do got a higher power
but we ain't talked in a minute

so tell me why i'd talk to God
but when they respond
i'd not listen

my eyes is wide but dry
i'd drop every source of division
so i could see clear

i wish some of yall would learn to feed faith
the way you learned to need fear

im just a vessel/vassal with a brain
homie
this isn't me here

and in the end
return to where we came
no need to be steered
and ain't no need to be scared

but i was

indoctrinating apostles
in toxic ass mental process

and that's a sin
that i had bought from my father

he taught me young
you don't gotta be the hardest or smartest
boy you just gotta be the one they know is too big a problem
to want 'em

and i been planting seeds
i hope i live to see
but i ain't staunch the bleeding

got a red thumb
mixed my blood with water
tryna seal my demons

you could rise or fall every season
or stay green
like rhododendrons

or you could let the poison stick in your veins
like you was ENRON

trapped when i was younger
but it won't behind no EXXON

splitting sheets at Sheetz
and mixing acid with suboxone

tweaking when i took my ScT
still i was spot on

homie OD'd sitting in the gym
walked out with cuffs on

remember thinking
""what the fuck they see in me?""
burnt out for so long

hit the floor a month after my 18th
i just thank God

told me i can't leave
till i learn to love my whole heart

grampa was a Texan
i come from a line of lone stars

Love your enemies
but don't forget bout who your own are

iron sharpens iron/Zion
gnashing teeth i feel my soul spark

when you cook with fire
don't forget to cut the stove off

i can't let it lay
ain't like Kenneth Copeland or like Kenneth Lay
i'll set it straight
and let it ring my bell
so God will let it rain

and i stayed down
until i understood
what's built on top of me
i overstayed

and honestly
i'm just a channel
that sum
i can't overstate

aside from what my pops taught me
on earth as is it is in heaven

and every time i walked in church
just know it won't for the reverend

i rarely seen a service/it's surface
because the basement was my shelter
a plastic chip
was my communion
leave the light on for whoever

and if you still out in the cold
it's warm inside and it gets better

damn
i let the flow go off
but i don't care
ain't spoke my heart like this in so long