I won’t lie to you
But I lie to myself a lot
I won’t lie to you
But I might need your help
For the tighten in my chest
I don’t like seeking help for looking weak
Escapism by way of tree
And I might give you head if you touch me
But watching you sleep is just as healing
And that’s enough for me

Why why why
Why me
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Why me

Hoping I’m good when I die with myself
Hoping I’m good when I die
And I don’t die from state of my mental health
Hoping I’m good
Jordan died that night in that room with that gun
Jordan died that’s somebody’s son
At the funeral
Open cask for everyone
It didn’t feel real
Was giving Emmitt Till
Two weeks before we at the table cracking jokes
Two weeks before I’m feeling stable, I feel whole
It feel like homemade dinner rolls from so and so
Til I got home they told the news and something broke
And left a hole

Why why why
Why me
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