If I could fake it again
All the chances I had
Eat away at me for centuries
If I could change it all
I'd change the way this felt to me
At least on the outside
And I'd live to be in the memories that keep playing on repeat
And I'm giving up the lesser as I'm cracking under pressure
Knowing I can give you what you plead but I lack the strength to be what you needed
I float away into emptiness space
And if I can't breathe there in the end then what if you were my oxygen?
You spent five years locked up in fear
That the man that I can be will lose to the man I am
I can't believe there's this version of me
Holding cards on the table, I can't let you see
And I know what you need and if you need to leave
Burning glass from the sand designed just to make you bleed
Now it's my turn to hurt and I've got nothing less to lose or prove
Spending your time saving me when the whole damn it was killing you
And what the fuck was I thinking when all that you built crashed around me?
I'd give it all just to leave this wreck and find you elsewhere, somewhere new
If I could fake it again
All the chances I had
Eat away at me for centuries
And I could save it all
But you know that I am a liar and these hands catch fire
Igniting the things I hold dearest to me
And I can't believe, I'm this version of me
When it comes to my heart, no ones broken it worse than me