But what if what if I died ?

One day I'll grab a gun
Put it to my head until I'm gone
And I won't put it down until I'm done
Until I'm done with me

One day you'll wake up and see I'm gone
Look horrified when you see that gun
And you'll open up a note I left up on
The counter for you to read

Yeah I hate you
Tried to force on me what I couldn't do
And to my friends yeah I love you
Yall kept me from dying, what I couldn't do

I don't got to stay here if I don't want to
Staring at heaven's gates what you gon do ?
Say you're sorry say you miss me
And now I'm gone so what you gon do ?