What am I doing here
Time ain't slowed down in a minute
I'm living my biggest fear
Worried I'm now too deep in it
I gotta find a new way somehow
Cos what I've done ain't enough
I've got so much older
Sight no longer clear
Anxiety blurred all the vision
I feel like the end is near
A new start in need of revision
Praying that the third time's the charm
And hopeful it will be enough
I feel so much older
Where's the respect for myself
The architect of my own hell
Are these just my emotions
Or am I lacking closure
Always thought I was the best
Wasn't aware of the stress it brings
Maybe all part of a test
But now I done made a whole mess of things
Wish I could beat myself up about it
First rule is I never talk about it
I never talk about it
Passion deciding my fate
My fault it changes day to day
I know it's never too late
I don't really wanna fade away
I got too much on my plate
I put too much in the way
Don't wanna see heaven's gate
Before I finally make it
You
You
You
Not
Listening
You're
Gonna
Lose
Everything
What am I doing here
Time ain't slowed down in a minute
I'm living my biggest fear
Worried I'm now too deep in it
I gotta find a new way somehow
Cos what I've done ain't enough
I've got so much older
Sight no longer clear
Anxiety blurred all the vision
I feel like the end is near
A new start in need of revision
Praying that the third time's the charm
And hopeful it will be enough
I feel so much older
Find a way
Oh I hope I find a way
To make it on my own
And don't end up being alone
Find a way
Oh I hope I find a way
To make it on my own
And don't end up being alone
I know I've asked for much
And I hate not being in love
But I need so much more from me
I know I don't make it easy
I know I've asked for much
And I hate not being in love
But I need so much more from me
I know I don't make it easy
Maybe I just need a vacation
Try a different location
Maybe I just need that vacation
And get outta this haven