They scream, used to dream and say, we'll make a horse here
Wake up in the morning and I sit alone in silence
No one hits me up, I match their energy, they wildin'
Roll me up some loud and I get higher than a pilot
Never really had the strength to wanna fuckin' hide it
I get frustrated and I wander into violence
So I smoke one to the face, can't even open eyelids
Only way to numb the pain is money and these diamonds
I flash away my past, in reality I'm timeless
My flow is so unique, it's spreading faster than the virus
Build up strength and courage and then break right down beside it
Demons haunt me in and out, can't even move the slightest
Remember my great-grandma, her hugs always were the tightest
Now it's dark and rainy, ain't got no one to sit beside with
Bitch, I'll fly a helicopter, crash it on your island
Only single person, ever really spent my time with
Trapped and isolated on the inside, I am dyin'
Take me, take me far away to the place we used to dream and say, we'll make a horse here
Lately I've been wasted, having complicated thoughts
Never sober, always drinking, on the inside I am lost
Crying and I'm shaking when I try to tell my mom
She can't even comprehend it, where did her little boy go wrong
Internally I'm breaking, so I'm choking from the bong
I can't take no more, I'm fading, slowly praising to the gods
Overloaded, so I'm blazing and I put up a facade
When you're damaged and you're broken, you feel everything is wrong
Life lessons, I stayed the same and life bended
Fuck fake friends, they pretended
Stayed there by my side and they left it
Mentally exhausted, I'm pretentious
Toxicity and people call it friendship
Only speaking facts, I got detention
All this negativity is endless