I never thought that you would hurt me, darling
I never thought that you would leave
I always thought that you would love me, darling
I never thought that you would leave
Boyfifty
So manipulated, why does everyone leave
Been so irritated, seeing death in my dreams
Been so frustrated, everything ain't what it seems
I'm dying on the inside, I think I'm losing sleep
Got me losing focus, I just think I'm losing me
Losing all my energy, I'm seeing different scenes
Losing touch of everything in this reality
When will someone stop me and just try to intervene
Remember those days, everyone was playing games
While I was in my room, crying, listening to the rain
See, those sunny days never take away my pain
Hollow in my head, I'm just done being deranged
Apparently, depression just seems to entertain
Don't want this popularity or any part of fame
Just wanna feel normal in my head, I'm not okay
I'm hurting and urging to bring out these curses
Getting these bruises, please bring out the nurses
Depressing, I'm curving to speak to a person
I'm just so damn nervous, medication not working
It might be concerning, no lessons I'm learning
I'm not important, I'm blind like a curtain
My thoughts are disturbing, I'm hurting and hurting
Got my death wish, I'm the only one searching
I numb all the pain by just being supportive
Holding my chest and there is no restoring
Popping my bubble, I can't stop this bursting
My demons are coming, they're lurking and lurking
Got these emotions, they're pretty enormous
And the deadly waves in my brain, I'm still surfing