Sickly, my skin is so sticky and stabbed
In a way, that's so shitty
I hold out my hands
You rip out my teeth
cnd my mind can't be bad
‘Cause I break all my mirrors to forget what I had

Beautiful memory of a girl I knew
Showed me my mind
You bruised it up, too
Fuck all the memories
Bitch, you're an enemy
I hate your whole family and your ugly dog, too

Weep for me, darling
Wrists have been cut
I stayed up for weeks
Your goodbye was enough
You can hit me again
cnd again, I am fucked
You can think of me poorly
‘Cause “I messed you up”

Think of me, darling
‘Cause the blood ran rough
Scars on your thighs prove I'm not enough
cnd the animals in the trash was to prove all my love
But the silence was deafening
Now the doors are all shut

Refined and applied the lotion to your skin
The drugs are not healing my hatred within
Repentance is futile
I'm an apprentice to sin
The sentence ends
cnd again it begins

Rope's getting tighter
cnd I'm not a fighter
cnd I hate all these people
I'm starting to spin
Starting to spin
Starting to spin
Starting to spin
Starting to spin

Love is so silly
We make it all up
cnd the sun isn't rising
‘Cause the moon just got stuck
cnd the stars are all hidden
We are far from the beginning
cnd I can't keep on trying
I don't give a fuck

‘Cause I'm not depressed
cnd my joy's a constant
I might digress that my brain seems haunted
You walk with me softly
I want to be wanted
I won't confess hatred
But I'll always flaunt it

Blood's getting heavy
But the sky isn't steady
cnd I already lost
But I want to win
Mind's getting darker
But the sky seems farther
Than a frail little body that's starting to spin
Past isn't something I think fondly of
So fast, something ever could have been love
Harassed, lights of gas
These fast nights I asked
You can hurt me on blast
cnd addictions like drugs


Back on top
cnd it's lonely up here
My partner's lost
Doing bad, I fear
If I yelled loud enough
If I fell hard enough
When the gun went off
The shot you would hear

Know you are close
But the silence is deafening
Now, our friendship is something I'm questioning
I'm used to the fights
Keep us up at night
It might be new to you
cnd make you sick while digesting

I miss you dearly
Deeply, I mean it
I'm angry at you for breaking our commitment
Your gifts of enrichment
cnd the arts of your trade
Reminds me of warm nights
cnd your voice of fulfillment

This song isn't meant to be something you hate
You know my voice
cnd I think you can relate
cnd I made sure to leave the taste in your mouth
To be pungent, sickening
Something you hate

Hard for me to wish you the best
But I think that might
People fucking suck
cnd so does my spite
cnd I hope you're killing it
Or at least all right
Life wasn't hard enough before our sick fight

The weight's getting heavy
cnd the rope sways steady
Just keep holding on
Just live through the night