I wish I could escape from the jaws
harshly entrenched my blood pressure drops

I do not doubt a side of me
has hope but not entirely
the nihilist feeds off the host

seems I'm aiming
for some sort of type
of normalcy

spread like
blood on a sheet of thin ice
one wrong step in any direction
wince at the thought of the consequences

mental health, a sickness ever consuming,
burdened by the strength of moving

I do not doubt a side of me
has hope but not entirely
the nihilist feeds off the host

fought hard to not be a critic
though everyone seems to be

subdued and defied
aviation denied
powerful forces against my will

wish I could escape from the clutch
defy all the odds
and write off the loss

I do not doubt a side of me
has hope but not entirely
the nihilist feeds off the host