I'm not loving the music, hate life and I don't wanna do shit
I don't wanna lose it, but it's already gone I'm clueless
Feel like it's bruising, my mental don't know where the screw is
I need you, I need time, I need two things

I don't wanna think about, all the stuff, that's getting me down
But I know you'll stick around, no matter the dough you'll be down
Fuck, I feel beat down, to be honest, I just wanna see now
All this work pay off, get real now. Still have that, dream how?

Depressed as fuck, everytime I try to run, I get stuck, feel like I'm in the mud
Just wanna feel your love, it's a buzz, it's why I be on drugs, look
I don't wanna move on, cause it's too long
Need to write a new song, but I'm down, so just get the blues on

I'm done, I don't wanna be here, I try my best to stay clear
From the pain, it's not getting easier, only fucking thing I see is fear
Of failure, wish I was braver, maybe then I would stay here
But, every single day hurts, didn't know, it could get way worse

The loneliness is killing me, all the pain, is still in me
Depression instills in me, I feel the darkness filling me
It's like, I don't even know meself
But I don't wanna take no help
I just wanna go somewhere else
Anywhere, that I don't know so well
The loneliness is killing me, all the pain, is still in me
Depression instills in me, I feel the darkness filling me
It's like, I don't even know meself
But I don't wanna take no help
I just wanna go somewhere else
Anywhere, that I don't know so well

I'm looking down, and I'm up so high
It look so peaceful, I don't know why
But I swear, it's where I wanna go tonight
Just wanna know what the flow's like
I want it to take me away
I can feel it everyday
Hear a voice in my brain
It tells me, I don't even wanna say

But, I don't even want to stay
I should go with the waves
I feel cold I don't want to feel this way
To be honest, I don't wanna be so sane
The sound of the waves possesses me
Falling the water, caresses me
Lungs full up, it's embedding in me
Feels like, I got left in a dream

Naw, I don't wanna feel like this
I don't wanna be lifeless
But, don't know if I can fight this
Fuck, think I need guidance
Think I need love, think I need God
Don't wanna think, just shut it off
I'm losing hope, wish I was strong
Don't really wanna go, I just feel lost

Devil is here, he talks in my ear
Feeds on my fear, pretend I can't hear
The end must be near, cause I can see clear
Not going anywhere, I'm staying here
I feel the hope, I'm coming home
Not letting go, keep hold of the rope
I'm at the bottom, talk about autumn
Not gonna fall, but I do have some problems

The loneliness is killing me, all the pain, is still in me
Depression instills in me, I feel the darkness filling me
It's like, I don't even know meself
But I don't wanna take no help
I just wanna go somewhere else
Anywhere, that I don't know so well