You turned off all the lights to the
Classroom in which you
Hide from everyone and you
Wish life would burn out this candle
Made from the wax of shame
And they said that your pain isn't really there
Still waiting for your ride
And no one sees your insides
Hardens on the table
That no one really likes you
When you try to speak your mind
On top you seem bored but
Below, you are violent and scared
And when you sharpen your eyes
Does it pierce through their voices
Discomfort and shaken the air?
Or does it just stay right inside?
Abrasive, degrading yourself from the inside out
From the inside
God knows you tried with all your fake face
Yeah, they wanna leave you high and dry
Well, you feel the same way
Certain people aren't your friends
Wouldn't give a fuck if you died
And when this goddamn year ends
You can kiss all this goodbye
Oh, come on now
If she likes your smile
Then why don't you smile more?
And if he thinks you're pretty
Then what does he run away for?
And if your voice is lovely
Then why can't you speak from the heart?
And if you told them that you're smart
Then why do you convince them that you're not?
And you're tryna get off it
Cause loneliness has become your drug
If you are always lonely (If she likes your smile)
Then why are you always alone? (Then why don't you smile more?)
And if you weren't angry (And if he thinks you're pretty)
Then why is there blood on the floor? (Then what does he run away for?)
And if you don't care what they say (And if your voice is lovely)
Then what you saying sorry for? (Then why can't you speak from the heart?)
And if they make you empty (And if you told them that you're smart)
Then why do you keep giving them more? (Then why do you convince them that you're not?)
And you hate living like this (And you're tryna get off it)
But you'd be lying if you said you've had enough (Cause loneliness has become your drug)
Your hand will never be held
And you'll never be kissed
So keep grossing all the boys out
By scoring at your wrists
Shut your eyes
And let the down pour
You will never be alright
And you'll never be adored
You can't live on your own
You cannot love yourself
Oh, you will die alone
And you're going to hell
You'll never be enough
This has taken far too long
And you hate the idea
Of someone proving that you're wrong
You may have a sweet kind heart
But that doesn't mean shit
Cause your shell's too hard
And everybody's superficial