Drown my thoughts
Drown my thoughts down
If she could hear me now, would there be chaos in the way I sounded
Too many miles, got no soles left
Punctured through my heart, same way bullets flew through my head
And I miss your face, what the fuck
I know I talk a lot about it, but shit sucks
We had a relationship that never grew enough
We were just starting to feel something tether
And then you pulled her from my hand like you were teasing me
Faint dreams of a good life, candid things
Looking back on it, I was an angry teen
Partially because she didn't believe in me
I know we're not supposed to talk down on the dead
But there's so much shit I've left unsaid
And I spent the last year trying to forgive
Accept the things that never could have been
A fortress I made in my mind coping
And I'm merely just a drop in the ocean
But I fantasize about a better life
If this is fight or die, then who the fuck am I
A go-getter for the pain and the kryptonite
Hopeful garden, but I fail to bear appetite
Ergo, there's a source for my suicide
I won't live a lie, see you on the other side
Everybody sees an imbalance
Everybody knows I've been drowning
Shipwrecked too far off the shore
And you see my hand and don't grab it
And they wonder why I don't trust nobody
'Cause I grew up in a world without anybody
The best thing is, they hated me for my hobbies
So I took 'em, and I went full time bitch
It's a stretch to say that I'll be famous
But I don't give a fuck what my name is
If I didn't mean a damn thing I ever said
I would've just pulled the trigger back then
When I sat there, gun loaded to my head
Praying to a God that never listens
All he do is take take take from me
Took everybody, and I try not to blaspheme
But damnit, I thought he was supposed to make me feel
less lonely
Only thing I feel is abandoned
Drown my thoughts
Drown my thoughts down
If she could hear me now, would there be chaos in the way I sounded
Too many miles, got no soles left
Punctured through my heart, same way bullets flew through my head