I've wanted this for so long
But the process just feels so wrong
Been trying hard to stay strong
But I don't know how I could
Wait, what the fuck I just say
You think that I'm nice get the fuck out my face
Know I got motion and I'll rob the whole place
Cause you never catch me working that 9-5 pace
Wait what the fuck I just say
Never catch me workin' that 9-5 pace
Turn on the TV and open up stake
Imma put my whole paycheck on a parlay
Fuck saving money I just want to buy bottles
Sipping on a drink while im driving in my auto
Three girlfriends I be moving in and out oh
But I move in silence so they don't know nada
Fuck, I just want to move fast
If you throw on the brakes imma throw on the gas
But it never seems to work no it never seems to last
Cause the bets never hit and my car just crashed
I've wanted this for so long
But the process just feels so wrong
Been trying hard to stay strong
But I don't know how I could
Get it straight got an eye for sweets
Sipping heated chocolate as I hug my sheets
Sleep in on a regular basis
Face the wall cause I refuse to face this
Get the bundles of bliss on the path
Blow bubbled sweets in my big bubble bath
Grapes of wrath as I struggle to find
A mind to relate to the fruits I design
Self doubt cause I know I'm wrong
Dismiss my pride as I write this song
Long dreams stretching them thin
To wrap up the mess I find my mind in
Spin through a day of obstruction
Endorphins fill the holes from destruction
Brushing all these coats of paint
To warm the worries I might create
I've wanted this for so long
Burning time just writing this song
Long breaks and big mistakes
Always looking for Endorphins