No I don't need forgiveness
I almost ended your life, please, no more guesses
I'm restless, I'm reckless
Don't put me as captain, it's all goin' manic
Don't put me in charge; everyone's gonna panic
I always lose; I'm like the old Spanish
Our empire will fall and end up in ashes
Killin' myself won't stop my own actions
I'm really just nothing; I'm just a distraction
What I could be, I'm only a fraction
Minecraft, dark inside like I'm a bastion
Didn't show up; now I've been banished
What a poor girl, showed up with slashes
Been doin' that too, poison ivy rashes
Hit by a car, we're in dangerous- (traffic)
Trafficked, they're laughin'
These cuts, they never halfin'
They say that I'm a has-been
They say that I'm an addict
They say I got no courage to go out and be laughin'
Have no directions on this windy road I'm travelin'
Numbers are low, makin' me mad
I get that the industry is hard for all to have
Thought I'd have a fan, but nah, I'm just bad
Stuck in a limbo of always just sad
Stuck in a limbo of self-harming instead
They say that I'm worthless to go out and rest
I'm escaping the pain they causin' the rest
I'm escaping the pain they causin' in wrecks
My health is in shambles, do you need an example?
I'm stuck in a state of always just gamble
Now i got no one, I can never just grapple
Eat me alive, but now they aint cannibal
Used to have friends, screwed me over now I'm cynnical
Now I'm just coping with rhyming and syllables
Going on tour is the point I'm unkillable
Until then everything aint hard to lose
Tying a noose, tryin' to move
Slipped off' my neck like it is too loose
Cannot fly high like there's nothing to lose
Stuck on the ground, I will never be used
Always be used, this battle I'm glued
Rattle my bones, like, this is too rude
Repeat everything, but it's makin' me lose