I pretend as if you and I weren't like this
I'm happy but I'm happy in a sawtooth pattern
If we loved each other, we wouldn't do so much dirty to each other

Since I was little, you're there early in the morning
You bring me back to reason when I act too smart
I've gone around my house to kill you
Yet you're always in my head
Every time I tell myself it's the end
Then I tell myself that even if I'm hurting, I know you'll eventually leave
You're the strongest so you'll win the game
You're discreet when you taunt me
The more time passes, the less strength I have to fight
You're there when I don't expect you, always on the left side
I'd like to talk about something else but when you're there I can't hear
I'll wait until next year, for you to come back and cling
When I'm doing well, you'll come to throw a punch
I'll wait in the dark for the pain to fade
I give up very quickly, it prevents me from collapsing
I can't turn down the volume, no we hate each other
I dread the countdown, I keep quiet, I let you count

I pretend as if you and I weren't like this
I'm happy but I'm happy in a sawtooth pattern
If we loved each other, we wouldn't do so much dirty to each other
I pretend as if you and I weren't like this
I heal myself with songs so
I'll forget you by singing like this, ah

Lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala la
Lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala la

I wonder if you think about me, I think about you when I have a headache
I wonder if you hear my voice, when you're there I'm not normal
You're a part of me, even if it's been 2 months since you left me
I tend to believe that you're waiting somewhere calm (leave calmly)
I know how powerful you are, how exhausting it is
Like every failure is stinging
It's as if I had 800 spikes in my eye
All my life, I live your existence alone
Oh, yes-yes! When you leave it's blissful
For me you're a pest, sometimes I think about suicide
For now I've succeeded, will you be there in the future? Huh?
You slow me down in my life and my writing
You disfigure me, I dodge, sometimes you disfigure me
I'd like to fill my cracks but you make my life hard
And out of habit I've tried all the mixtures
What will I do when you're stronger than my injections?

I pretend as if you and I weren't like this
I'm happy but I'm happy in a sawtooth pattern
If we loved each other, we wouldn't do so much dirty to each other
I pretend as if you and I weren't like this
I heal myself with songs so
I'll forget you by singing like this, ah

Lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala la
Lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala la

I pretend as if you and I weren't like this
I'm happy but I'm happy in a sawtooth pattern
If we loved each other, we wouldn't do so much dirty to each other
I pretend as if you and I weren't like this
I heal myself with songs so
I'll forget you by singing like this, ah

Lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala la
Lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala la
Lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala lalalala la

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