Staring at a rooftop, wondering what it’s like to float
Playing with a cat toy like it’s wrapping round my throat
S**icide is not something that I would like
But thoughts of it just often cross my mind

If I say such dark things don’t you feel terrified?

Minimizing what I feel to keep another safe (Keeps us safe)
Criticizing my ordeal and hope it goes away
It’d be better if I didn’t feel a thing
I tried to numb my heart, but still it stings

Unconsciously my body screams “Please end everything.”

I’d rather lie
Than show what’s on the inside
It hurts too much to bear
But I don't want to see you scared
I'd rather cry
Alone before I die
This spiraling despair
Is not something I wish to share
I'd rather lie

Waking up, the snake that taunts you slithers by your side
Saying that your stomach’s full ‘cause you can’t stand another bite
But try as you might you still have a taste
Who knew that poisoned fruit would feel so great

But isn’t all that sweetness just disguising the hate?

Minimizing what I feel and hurting myself more (Keeps us sane)
Criticizing my ordeal because it isn’t yours
I still hate that I feel anything inside
So I’ll convince myself it’s justified

And consciously I tell myself “You’d better die”

Staring at a rooftop
Playing with a cat toy
Once again, the snake appears to ask me if I’ll bite
If I did, would I finally feel satisfied?

I’d rather lie
Than show what’s on the inside
It hurts to let you see
So I will hide my misery
I'd rather cry
Alone before I die
I'll slip away in secrecy
So all you have to do is say

Goodbye