So close But it's still far
I can't see where my mind go
I think I'm too far gone
Think Im too gone alone
I swear I can't find my way home
Yeah you're Always in my notebook
Never speak bad about you
I just cannot
It's been too long without you
Been too long without you
I can't keep lying to myself
Can somebody send me help
False hope Full of lies
It's what I do so well
It's what I do to myself
Now I live in the numbness
There's some things I'm getting used too
It'll take time will it be mine
It's okay now
I know how to live without you

You know they don't know what I see
Say what you want about me
Always gonna doubt
yeah all these people gonna doubt me
Yeah they always gonna doubt me
Yeah I'm coming from the bottom tryna keep my eyes open
Steady with my head down keep my head focused
Tryna stay low you been busy on my mind
Think about you all the time
There's sometimes that I wish that you were here still
It's nothing like what we had like nothings real
I been too busy too much problems in my life to much bullshit on my mind
There's a problem everywhere I go
Bad luck won't leave me alone
Is it really all my fault
Do I gotta take the blame though
I guess so I guess so

You know these hoes don't fulfill me
They don't know nothing about me
You know these hoes don't fulfill me
They don't know nothing about me
You know these hoes don't fulfill me
They don't know nothing about me
You know this ain't the life I want to live
Fuck what you heard about me about me
Don't doubt me