So many nights I stayed up trying
So many nights I'd sit there wondering why
So many nights I stayed up trying
So many nights I'd sit there wondering why
So many nights I stayed up trying
So many nights I'd sit there wondering why
Baby do you hate me?
For I'm a liar
Baby do you hate me?
For I'm a liar
So many nights
So many nights
So many nights I stayed up trying
So many nights I stayed up writing
So many nights I stayed up fighting
I'm trying my best I need rest
I don't wanna be this way
I need relief from the stress inside my chest
I'm feeling depressed I know mamma you ain't impressed
I don't wanna be this way I ain't okay
Lately feeling like my life's a test
Manifest about a life that's great
Ever since I was eight I knew I'd make away
This is my fate Ima be straight Ima make away no need to wait
Today is my day there's no debate
I got a lot of hate we all relate
We feel like nothing's okay
Nothing's going our way so just we say
So many nights I stayed up trying
So many nights I'd sit there wondering why
So many nights I stayed up trying
So many nights I'd sit there wondering why
I know you don't wanna fight so you put a knife to tight wrist you wanna make a slit
Don't do it don't quit you got so much to live for
I know you're living in fear you feel like no one's there
You try to make it clear It cuts deeper every year
And I know it's so unclear so just please don't give up
So many nights I stayed up trying
So many nights I'd sit there wondering why
You sit in your room several hours at a time
Tears running down your eyes
You wanna say your goodbyes But you feel it ain't wise
You don't wanna lie don't wanna cry you just wanna die
You can't make it right
You feel like you've tried
You don't wanna fight
You just wanna make it right
But every single night it's the same thing
Going back to the past you don't wanna let it last
120 on the dash going fast let it crash let me pass
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna stay here
Please don't leave here
I know it's hard you don't wanna stay here
I promise it gets clear
You appear as happy when you're feeling crappy
I know it's hard you will make it by
You will be bright
You'll be alright
I promise it gets better
So many nights I stayed up trying
So many nights I'd sit there wondering why