I live like a permanent guest at a lonely motel
I lay in a bed that somebody else makes
While I make a mess of somebody else
And when I come back, I pretend nothing happened
Just a room that's devoid of myself
I think that I'm happy
I'll give it a week
And I can't go in public always someone who hates me
Cut the dye from my hair 'cause I miss being nobody
Who would curse my name too, knowing the villain you've made me
I'm a man on the moon
I'm running light years from you
If you want the truth
From the start we were doomed
And it's the best I could do
Not to take you down too
'Cause I just didn't love you
I'm a man on the moon
I live like my dad in the hospital waiting room
Expecting the call
Mourning too soon, trying to be present too
And he thinks it's his fault
I'm worried my family, if they really knew me
Would stop trying to see me, and if you saw my body
Would you wanna lose me
Cuz I don't think you would choose me
I'm a man on the moon
I'm running light years from you
If you want the truth
From the start we were doomed
And it's the best I can do
Not to take you down too
I'm sorry I couldn't love you
Meant to be a man on the moon
Wish I could leave us like you did
You battered and bruised it
Replaced all my empathy
With broken machinery
Deserve every bad thing
Goddamn "therapist's wet dream"
If only I had one
But I'm too far from saving
I'm a man on the moon
And I think a part of you knew
I would show up there too
Nobody kills me like you do
Oh, how a month can destroy you