I'm too much
But not enough
My skin feels like home
Then it feels like a prison
I can't sleep
Can't be awake
Cuz if I'm alone with my thoughts I'll break
It's tiring and treacherous
The way my mind is such a mess
The walls I've built aren't growing thin
How will I ever let you in
When I can't even tell you when
I've spent a night not wondering

Do I deserve to fall in love
And am I even strong enough
Why did he touch my body without my permission
Maybe when I'm gone and dead I'll finally have the answers but
In the meantime
My mind is poison
My breaking point feels like home
I taste poison
It's all on his lips and in his hands
My minds poison
Will I ever trust again or are they all poison
My mind is poisoning me

I've saved me
Too many times
I've picked up the pieces
He broke without knowing
Sometimes I'd bleed me dry
And starve my damn body til my bones were showing
My way of controlling all of the pain that he caused when he stole a life I'll never know
You heard me say no
And I hope your moment of bliss was worth the death of my soul

Do I deserve to fall in love
And am I even strong enough
Why did he touch my body without my permission
Maybe when I'm gone and dead I'll finally have the answers
In the meantime
My mind is poison
My breaking point feels like home
I taste poison
It's all on his lips and in his hands
My minds poison
Will I ever trust again or are they all poison my mind is poisoning me

And now it's June
You're waking up and it's summer and the sun is shining all on your skin
And you soak it in
In your nice apartment with your girlfriend downtown your dog asleep on the couch
While I'm breaking down
Cuz my body knows the damn date that you stole the fucking life out of me
My mom and my sister sharing turns taking watch
Staying awake in case my memory goes off
While you're sleeping great
There's food on your plate
I know one day
It all comes crashing and you'll break
I'll be set free
I'll be able to breathe
I'll never question
Do I deserve to fall in love
And am I even strong enough
Why did you touch my body without my permission
Your memories gone and dead
No way you're messing with my head
I'm stronger cuz of me
I'm finally breaking free
I know you're poison
My breaking point isn't home
My minds poison
It's all on your lips and in your hands
You're poison
My mind is poisoning me