I’m sorry I’m such a fucking degenerate
18 years old I was selling heroin
Feel so insecure it’s embarrassing
And sometimes I don’t wanna live but I’m scared of death
I break down when I’m talking to my therapist
Blame all of my mistakes on my arrogance
I gotta learn to handle my issues
You know we both got abandonment issues

My mental health crumbling
Only time I feel alright’s when I’m stumbling
I find ketamine comforting
I can’t be alone
I need you to keep me company
My friends and family can tell I'm struggling
I don’t recognize my reflection and it’s startling
Feel my self deteriorating
You know I love you but I don’t wanna be with you lately
And you gon tell your friends whatever so it seems like I’m crazy
When you gonna grow up
Stop being a baby
I’m 21 your 20 now it’s been a while
I got trauma I still need to heal my inner child

I’m sorry I’m such a fucking degenerate
18 years old I was selling heroin
Feel so insecure it’s embarrassing
And sometimes I don’t wanna live but I’m scared of death
I break down when I’m talking to my therapist
Blame all of my mistakes on my arrogance
I gotta learn to handle my issues
You know we both got abandonment issues

You said I’m a nobody
That shit really got to me
Hate it when we fight
Never talked it out properly
You were by my side
I was dealing with poverty
Treated you like my property
This feeling is harrowing
You don’t look me in my eyes when you talk to me
Lied and I cheated now you don’t want my apologies
Serotonin deficit
Been thinking of ending it
Devil on my shoulder
I could use an exorcist
Infatuated with your pheromones
See you when I look up at the sky don’t need a telescope
I know I’m a bad person I feel terrible
I wish we were somewhere on a beach out in Mexico

I’m sorry I’m such a fucking degenerate
18 years old I was selling heroin
Feel so insecure it’s embarrassing
And sometimes I don’t wanna live but I’m scared of death
I break down when I’m talking to my therapist
Blame all of my mistakes on my arrogance
I gotta learn to handle my issues
You know we both got abandonment issues