As I stare
In the darkness of my life it's not so clear
So I try to pray to God I hope he hears
I just wanna reach the top, I know I'm near
Near

What am I fighting for
All these years passed in a war, will it it last for some more?
When I was a kid I would ask for a cure
For these thoughts in my brain that was cracking my skull

I knew I had a story to tell,
So I put the pen to paper, and started my trail
Look the only way I could escape from this hell
Was to put myself in solitary, like it was jail

I don't wanna claim depression, but I was pressed
To understand what's the lesson, I didn't feel blessed
Misery loves company, my invites never sent
The coaches never looked at me
Kept my ass on the bench, and damn

I miss my old hood, and not my childhood
But in my childhood, I found my manhood
So now that's my hood, where I plant my feet
Ima die chasing my dreams, that's my beauty sleep...

Tears in my eyes
Tears in my soul
Those were the days, I was playing with my life you see
Those were the days, I was playing with my life you see

Tears in my eyes
Tears in my soul
Those were the days, I was playing with my life you see
Those were the days, I was playing with my life you see


I'ma about to use a common quote
So like they say this the realest shit I ever wrote
I'ma open up, like I never done before
Here's a list of the things that I really hope

I hope that I learn I can cry more
Last year, broke down on my room floor
I was broke, I was lost, cause I wanted more
Maybe therapy can help me with my damaged core

I hope my ex girl find the love she want
And the life she deserve times a million
Let your knew nigga know he really won
And if you still single, you a one in trillion

I hope every nigga I had static with
Understand that I don't do no magic trick
I won't run from the smoke, if it's shit to settle
But let we make sure that it's water in the fuckin kettle

Look I hope all my niggas never fumble
Some of y'all are pops, in your eyes you so humble
Tell your seeds, that they got a star as an uncle
And when I get own we gon' all run the jungle Hey

I hope that the child in me happy, I really did my best
And I'll keep pushing forward, till the day we rest
No one was really there to encourage us
So I gotchu lil nigga, we gon' flourish us

Tears in my eyes
Tears in my soul
Those were the days, I was playing with my life you see
Those were the days, I was playing with my life you see

Tears in my eyes
Tears in my soul
Those were the days, I was playing with my life you see
Those were the days, I was playing with my life you see

Since we here, being sincere, revealing fears
And our tears, then hear me clear
2018 was one of the worst years of my life
Imagine you at a spa, and get massaged with a knife

I thought I had the plan down pact
Move away, get signed or something like that
But when you go to God and tell him you want the world
He can really give it to you, but first you gotta hurt

So I understand the hurt God (Hurt God)
I hope I been through the worst God (Worst God)
You know I put in so much work God (Work God)
I'm just trying to be the first God (First God)

Look
From death, to life, to love (To Love)
From me to you, with hugs (Hugs)
I just wanna make this life a life
I guess the next step is kids, and wife

And I swear
Whenever I tell my story then you'll care
For the people that I lost and those still here
I just wanna reach the top, I know I'm near
Near