Desperately grasping at the meaning of life
From someone who is truly afraid to live
Burying themselves beneath a mountain of pills
Just to let reality drift
Into a distant thought

Maybe I'm just a fool
Who's dissecting your words
To mean what I want them to
Holding on
To every syllable
Like everything you said meant something more
Slow slurs echo through my mind
Reminding me
Of how oblivious you can be
When you only see
What you want to

Desperately grasping at the meaning of life
From someone who is truly afraid to live
Burying themselves beneath a mountain of pills
Just to let reality drift
Into a distant thought

I figured it out for myself though
I let the forest consume me
And took what I could from the branches and bark
To try and make myself more than who I was when I went in
You've always feared the trees
Running as far away as you could
Fighting the whole time to keep from being enveloped by the burden of life
Life catches up though
Forcing confrontation with your past
Your future
Your everything

Desperately grasping at the meaning of life
From someone who is truly afraid to live
Burying themselves beneath a mountain of pills
Just to let reality drift
Into a distant thought

You always gave that snake oil-selling grin
Trying to push it more than the substances
That keep your spine aligned
That keep your spine aligned