I just text my ex and told her thank you for leaving me,
Cause now I'm finally becoming everything that I dreamed to be,
When they I took my brother I swear that lost a piece of me
The energy been off in the city, I switch the scenery up
Was deep in rut, grief struck, eating me up
boarded the plane with more baggage then they keep in tuck of the overhead
my sister got married the same weekend that Pat died and I ain't been sober since
2 shots to go to bed,
I been having nightmares of people tryna kill Me as god's telling me hold your head
Moms crying, worried bout the business that I'm in
But it's what I'm born to, like shark is born swim
Kissed my bros forehead in that casket, felt his cold skin
Ever since that point I had no choice but to go in
See his son's eyes and wanna cry but I won't bend
We just soldier up and carry on cause we grown men.
I know I've sinned horribly and this may be my punishment for all that I've done and I'm truly sorry.
Nobody's perfect, we're all just one step up from beasts and one step down from angels.
Though I am hopeful. Hope is the companion of power and mother of success, for who so hopes strongly has the gift within him of miracles.
I go from emotional to emotionless
Curving all my calls like a crescent moon, cause I got mad tension in my solar plex
Up late, Drinking straight vodka like a Soviet
Mind rushin' as I'm running from from feelings hopelessness dog...
But I know I gotta bear down...
Look me and the mirror stare downs
wide eyed mind fried
Pills got me higher then paramount summit
Shedding tears out in public and it's real
I been gaining traction and losing sleep
Paranoid at red lights, wondering if dude could be my killer that's right across from me
For the simple fact I chose artistry, make it make sense somebody talk me
Seen that fucking footage on Twitter that shit was something else, everyone had time to film, no one had time to help?
Guess it's just society
Born alone die alone, this past month I swear discovered another side of me, word
Don't you ever let your giving soul get weary. Keep a warm heart, cause it's a cold world. Your giving won't return void.
Blessings come back to you a thousand times over.
I know you feel isolated, but pain does that, Just remember that you're never alone. I promise.
There's not a struggle or a fight that you could face that hasn't been fought before. There's not a challenge, or fear or tragedy known to man that you can't overcome.